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Time:10:55 am
Man its been awhile since Ive been on LJ. Lots have happened since the last time I made an Actual post.
Ive quit drinking. Drinking made me into a person I wasn't. Quit doing drugs. I found out quickly that weed was just an escape from reality and found out that no matter how you try and escape it, it always finds you. Been drug free for 2 years and haven't had a drink in about a year and a half. Best thing Ive done is quit it all!!! Best results....Losing around 80 pounds! I feel great!
I took and completed Anger Management. It was voluntary. I couldn't handle being the person I was anymore and continually hurting the people around me. Drinking, Drugs, and Being angry at the world just wasn't me and I needed help. People say I didnt have a drinking or drug problem. Things is... I did. Most people just saw me out in public, having a great time. Only thing they didnt know is I didnt know when to stop. I couldn't tell you how many times I had to have someone pick me up off the floor or tend to me days after because I blacked out/drank way to much.  
Starting over is extremely hard, but I'm waking up every day alive and thankful for another day. I've tried talking to my boyfriend, Jarrett, about all this but he doesn't seem to understand. I wish I had someone to understand again. Some days I wish he knew me before all the drinking and drugs.  Then maybe he'd understand.
28th birthday is right around the corner. Dont really have anything to show for it. Not married, no kids, no house, nothing. I recently quit my job at Sally Beauty Supply because I got tired of going in day after day, busting my ass, only to be told to my face that I'm a piece of shit and I only do my job half ass. Being cussed at daily over stupid stuff just wasn't on my agenda. Yeah I should have stayed and stuck it out, but putting up with this over so long can wear on a person. Wanting to punch them in the face or stab them with a pen came to mind. One thing I learned in Anger Management is NO MATTER the situation, if you feel like you're going to do something that will result in bad things, then separate yourself and move forward with more positive things. I am currently looking for a job. I've put out tons of resumes and have had several interviews. Have one later today too. 
I miss the old days. A lot! The people, The friends, The gatherings, The Relationship. Not saying the relationship I have now isn't great, but it's not going to go any further than what it is now. I know this. He knows this. But yet, we find ourselves still together. My problem is, I have a really hard time being alone. I hate it! I love the comfort of knowing someone is always there. Maybe I should just get a dog. lol. 
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Subject:Joke Of The Day
Time:09:27 am
Current Mood:bouncybouncy
 

A man died and went to heaven. As he stood in front of St. Peter at the Pearly Gates, he saw a huge wall of clocks behind him. He asked, “What are all those clocks?”

St. Peter answered, “Those are Lie-Clocks, Everyone on Earth has a Lie-Clock. Every time you lie, the hands on your clock will move.”

“Oh,” said the man, “Whose clock is that?”
“That’s Billy Graham’s. The hands have never moved, indicating that he never told a lie.”

“Incredible,” said the man, “And whose clock is that one?” St. Peter responded, “That's Abraham Lincoln’s clock. The hands have moved twice, telling us that Abe told only two lies in his entire Life.”

“Where’s Hillary Clinton’s clock?” asked the man.

“Hillary’s clock is in Jesus’ office. He’s using it as a ceiling fan.”

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Time:05:48 pm
Current Mood:okayokay
Wow... ok... drawing a huge blank...

How the hell do you do a cut? I havent done it in forever and totally forgot! lol
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Subject:Rethinking The Roommate.......
Time:08:59 am
Current Mood:annoyedannoyed
So much has happened since Mark left for Colorado Springs Monday morning. Went out Monday night with Tiffany and Josh. We went putt putting and grabbed some dinner. We were going to go see a movie but we were all so tired that we just bought some beer and headed back here and watched a few movies. Yesterday was interesting. Took Tiffany to work and I went and got my hair done. Regis (in the mall) was kinda busy so it took the girl nearly 5 hours to do my hair. Anyways. On my way home I totally forgot to stop and get some hair gel, so I called Tiffany, when I got home, and asked her if she could stop by Wal-Mart on her way home and get me some gel and I would pay the dude, who was giving her a ride home, back whenever they got home. Well she didnt get home till 12:30 last night, showed up with no hair gel, and was happy because she went to the movies. I stayed up all night thinking I was going to have to pay this dude back. Today is my first day of work... I should have been in bed way earlier last night. I just figured that since Mark and I are helping her out right now by letting her live with us, for now, that maybe she could do me one favor.. ONE FAVOR.. and stop and get the damn hair gel and be back home on time for me to pay that dude back and get my ass in bed. *sigh* So now I am up and still very very very tired. Already had 2 cups of coffee... Im working on my 3rd now. She has lived here about 2 weeks now and yesterday was the very first day we actually hung out and did some stuff together.  I was sooooo close to kicking her out last night. We are here, baby sitting her puppy and picking up after her, and she's out partying all night. Pisses me off. Like I told Josh last night on the phone... I feel like Mark and I are raising this 19 year old immature little red head. I just want to be a good friend.. not a bitch and certainly not her mother... but b/c she lives here, I have every right to put my foot down... Right?
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Subject:Out of the dark for just a second
Time:10:38 am
Current Mood:blahblah
HI !
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Time:11:37 am
Current Mood:bouncybouncy

I gots ta give a shout out to my Marky Pooh...

Happy Birfday Homes!



I love you!

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Time:10:44 am
You Are Elmo
Sweet and innocent, you expect everyone to adore you. And they usually do! You are usually feeling: Talkative. You've got tons of stories to tell. And when you aren't talking, you're laughing. You are famous for: Being popular, though no one knows why. Middle aged women especially like you. How you life your life: With an open heart. "Elmo loves you!"
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Time:12:31 pm
Current Mood:disappointedDisappointed in myself
The first step is admitting you have a problem.







Hello. My name is Ashlea.............
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Subject:Quizzes
Time:10:33 am
Current Mood:awakeawake
Your results:
You are Wonder Woman
Wonder Woman
93%
The Flash
90%
Supergirl
83%
Robin
78%
Spider-Man
70%
Iron Man
70%
Superman
65%
Green Lantern
60%
Catwoman
60%
Hulk
55%
Batman
25%
You are a beautiful princess
with great strength of character.


Click here to take the Superhero Personality Test



You Are a Pineapple Jelly Bean

Easy going and undemanding, you have good taste but aren't a show off about it.
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Time:04:41 pm
Current Mood:happyGlad to be Home!!
I found a job! YAY! Only problem is the lady told me I cant start, not next week, but the week after. Ugh! All well. I'm trying to look at it in a positive way....at least I found a job! I will still put applications in at different places, just in case.
On my way home, I thought I was getting pulled over and it freaked me out so bad, I almost ran into the curb. Turns out that the cop pulled the car over in front of me and when the cop got over in front of me to pull him over, he almost hit me. Sheesh!
And I thought that Wal-Mart was bad this time of day....Target is bad too. Went to get some Diet Dr. Pepper and a few other things since I was just right there, and there were kids left and right screaming. There was one lady who whooped the shit out her little boy.
Anyways. I'm home now and I'm gunna unpack the rest of my stuff and get a start on dinner and laundry.

Chow for Now!!!
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